Wednesday, June 29, 2011

New Lauren vs. Old Lauren

Woke up way too early this morning. My brain wouldn't let me sleep. Ever since I got my acceptance letter to Canterwood, if the thought of school enters my brain even for a second, I get so excited slash nervous that I can barely stand it. I had to get up and go for a run.

When I got back, I changed into my swim suit and floated around in the pool for a while just thinking. What if I made a mistake by applying to Canterwood now? Maybe I needed another year at Briar Creek. It hadn't been long since my . . . accident. Not long since Kim had started working with me. I wasn't sure if I was ready for the pressure of the show circuit again or if I could even handle it. I wasn't that Lauren Towers anymore.

And that's what terrifies me about Canterwood. What if, by some ridiculous chance, someone there recognizes my name? What if they know about my past? Canterwood's supposed to be my fresh start and the last thing I want is for people to know me as the Old Lauren before they get to know me. It feels good to say, well, type this so it's not just rattling around in my brain.

I wasn't even going to start a blog, but Dad thought it was a good idea. He said I could lock it if I was afraid to be honest and write what I was thinking and feeling. I thought about it and finally decided that there was no way anyone at Canterwood would ever find my little blog. No one there is going to read it and find out that Lauren from Union is coming to Canterwood.

Hmmm . . . I wonder if I should even mention that I'm from Union. That's where Sasha's from. Not as if she needs her last name mentioned, but Sasha Silver is a former Briar Creek rider. Kim trained Sasha until she was accepted to Canterwood. Sasha is Canterwood royalty and Briar Creek legend. She and her horse, Charm, are on the Youth Equestrian National Team, and competing for Canterwood Crest. I've got a lot of work to do to follow in her footsteps.

~LT

18 comments:

  1. I wish you good luck at canterwood lauren and you'll do fine. And I think your dad was right about blogging. Plus who cares if your from briar creek on union because you are who you are and nobody's perfect...
    Will someone please read my blogs and leave comments

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  2. EmmaTheAuthoressJune 29, 2011 at 1:04 PM

    Lauren, don't worry at all about being at Canterwood. It IS a fresh start for you, and you are going to do well, I know. Plus, if they know about your accident, wouldn't they sympathize? Anyway, keep on blogging, Laurbell!

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  3. It's alright Laurbell! You'll do great @ Canterwood! I know you can do it!

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  4. Lauren, you don't need to worry about Canterwood! You are an excellent rider who is very brave! Everyone will be amazed at how you didn't quit riding, even after your accident. You didn't give up, even if you were a little scared. That is truly something to be proud of. Stay strong, and keep posting! <333

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  5. Will someone please read my blogs and leave comments

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  6. Good luck, Lauren. I know you'll do great!

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  7. no worrys youll do fine at canterwood just remember that you always have wisper!

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  8. I know everyone already said this, but I think you'll do fine, and if someone teases you about being from Union, think about where the other Union girl ended up-the YENT. (But as much as I love you, in Chosen, YOU were the one disrespecting Charlotte, not that I think you meant to, but still.......)

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  9. U r gr8 Lauren! Even Sasha used to feel a little envious of u!

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  10. Lauren, you will excel at CCA and make Sasha proud.

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  11. Laurbell, you're going to do great at Canterwood! They wouldn't have accepted you if they didn't think you were ready!! Don't worry, Brielle and I both know that you'll do amazing things there - plus we'll be texting you, like, every three seconds to hear about the stable and Mr. Connor. :) Call me later... <3

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  12. LaurBell,
    I read this while I was visiting friends in Brooklyn...You will do fine forget about the past and go to Canterwood! It was not a mistake applying you deserve to go there. People with not think your a freak coming from union Sasha went there!

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  13. You'll do great! Canterwood is so amazing. I'm going into 6th grade, and I'm scared. If I'm scared to go into middle school, you've got some serious guts apply to canterwood. You'll do great things. Canterwood just gained a new addition to the advanced team! XOXOXO -Emily and Aladdin 4ever@! btw, if anyone is interested in reading my story, leave a comment on this page and i will post it!

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  14. this is Emily and Aladdin 4ever@! again, what I meant by posting a comment, write your comment to Lauren, and after that ask me if you want to read the story

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  15. You'll do awesome Lauren... you have Whisper, so don't worry what people say to put you down. I'm going into the same grade as you :)

    ~Anya

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  16. You'll do great, Lauren! Don't be afraid, you and whisper will conquer all! Stick to your friends and try to be as polite as possible to Mr Connor, he's a tough one, Indi and I send huggles
    (Indi: White Arab)
    <3 Rosey

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  17. Don't worry you will do the best at canterwood

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